Ashlee Simpson

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath,
I hope it lasts


[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
OhhhhhIt's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
When youre happy, it's a mission
And you wont stop 'til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
OhhhhhIt's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything
I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I love the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...


Someday I'll find that guy ... someday

Hiding

Hidden feelings, Please stay hidden
You hurt too much to express
I almost wish my heart was breaking
For this is what I CAN express

Hidden feelings, please stay hidden
My mind is such a mess
I long to just go for ONE day
When my life does not regress

Hidden feelings, please stay hidden
I do not want your pain
This thing I feel is much too new
I don't want all the strain

Hidden feelings, please stay hidden
This all is new to me
For so long I've been in a shell
Now I just want to be free

Hidden feelings, don't stay hidden
It's time for them to see
My life is good and I will live
No matter where you lead

The comments of the day:

*I just threw up in my mouth a little
*Just so you know scary movies make me jump so I'm probably going to burrow into you
*Excuse me while I gag
*Are you for serious???
*sky=blue ... no wait ... sky=kinda gray now that you mention it, then it rained a little bit, kinda windy, then it stopped, and then it got dark....
*I have to go pray to the porcelain gods now ...
*Dude, you smell!
*It looks like the Loch Ness Monster!!!!!

Missing

I feel as though I'm missing something. I don't know if its in my social life(what little of it there is), in my daydreams, or whether it is something right under my nose. I want to be able to find out what it is - I just have a hard time looking inside myself anymore.

Lots of times when I look inside I see a broken heart - a soul in need of serious repair and I have no clue how to even start dealing with either of those. I see blackness - guilt for things done ine the past - those that can never be changed, although I don't know if I would want to change them now that I think about it. Life isn't supposed to be this way - its not supposed to seem as though everyday is a never ending saga I just want to get out of.

I always wanted to have a husband and a family and grow old with one man - not need to have a job, but to have the capability to get one if I needed to. Now I don't even know if I want to do that anymore. I have the beginnings of a family - a beautiful baby boy - but I'm not sure if I can ever handle dating again. I don't want to have my heart broken - I don't think I can take anymore hurts like I have been dealt. To some it may seem as though I am just a hard hearted girl who needs to grow up and deal with life. But my heart isn't heardened to all people - just those who hurt me dearly. And when you hurt me badly you don't deserve to be let into my heart again. I gave you a chance and it was ruined. I don't ever want to go through that again.

Number 1

So the first entry ...

I'm not exactly sure what to say on here. It seems, by the title, I should be saying something of substance about joys and life in general. Unfortunately it isn't so.

And until I can thik of something worthwhile I am signing off.