Tuesday, August 29, 2006

The struggles make you stronger

And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way
of taking its sweet time
Life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful,
But it's a beautiful ride


NO MATTER THE STRUGGLES,
NO MATTER THE PAIN,
LOOK UP AT THE SKY
YOU'LL SEE THROUGH THE RAIN
WITH FRIENDS BY YOUR SIDE
AND FAMILY CLOSE
THINGS WILL TURN OUT
WHEN YOU NEED IT MOST


Friday, August 25, 2006

Just because someone doesn't love you as you want

I'm sitting here supposedly reading material for my classes and I thought back to a comment on a previous entry.

"just because someone doesnt love you the way you want doesnt mean they dont love you with all that they have and all that they are"

Wow ... it's amazing how true those words are! There are people who throw themselves into every relationship they are in - family, friends, work, boyfriend/girlfriend - and they succeed in letting everyone know how much they are loved.

Then there are those who stay on the sidelines and love people but don't know how to tell them - but when they do the the courage or the appropriate way, watch out because you're hooked for life.

I guess the quote made me feel kind of silly. I don't want someone to love me just because I love them or have feelings for them - I want them to love me for me. And if that just means sitting on the sidelines until the time comes where they feel comfortable expressing even friendly love - so be it.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Every light in the house is on
Just in case you ever do get tired of bein gone
Every light in the house is on










I miss you grandpap

Sunday, August 20, 2006

And boom ...

You're all grown up. In some ways, I'm very glad where I am. But thinking back, I sometimes wish I was still in 5th grade.

Granted, I was a dork back then. I didn't dress in the 'cool' clothes, I didn't have the 'cool' friends, and I had glasses. But back then, I was the girl trying to get through school, trying to get straight A marks, and hoping that someday I would grow out of my awkward, gangly stage and find someone to love me. The only thing I really worried about was my next test and who would be home to play with after school.

So maybe the only thing that actually has changed is the fact that I'm no longer in 5th grade, and my worries are a whole lot more intense. Granted, I don't wear the same terrible pants, or the same awful shirts, but I don't go out and buy something just because it is in style either. I guess everything else fits though - I'm still trying to get through school with the highest marks, hoping to get out of this awkward stage and find someone to love me. I think I'm going to need a miracle for some of those things to happen.

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see the way clear through the rain
A small but resilient voice
Says hope is very near

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles, you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Well now ...

So I guess it's time I started to take my own advice.

I was talking to a dear friend of mine today, and she just went through a break-up. He was begging her to get back together but she didn't know what she wanted. So I told her this:

Write down a list of everything you want to do in your life. It can be anything - no matter how small, or how crazy it sounds. If you want to do it someday, write in on your list. Then go and write a list of all the things you want in a guy. Make sure this list isn't tailored so someone specific, just make it as if you have met the perfect guy with no flaws whatsoever. Then, after you have accomplished both of those tasks, look at the guy you broke up with and see what he fits with. If he fits 50% or more of the things on both lists, start back from the beginning. If he doesn't fit 50%, he isn't what you need in a man and he isn't worth the time or the trouble right now. He could change, but right now he isn't worth the trouble.

This is the point I go and bite my tongue because I haven't exactly taken my own advice. Why did I have to do that to myself???